* Isaiah 6:1-8, (9-13) * Psalm 138 * 1 Corinthians 15:1-11 * Luke 5:1-11

This week our sermon begins with a ‘Fishy Quiz’

Can you guess these five fish from their descriptions:

1. This fish will make you laugh.
2. This fish will help if your piano doesn’t sound quite right.
3. This fish is perfect for people who re-enact 15^th century battles.
4. This fish is for you if you like to glide across frozen ponds in the winter.
5. This fish is the one that would help your parrot take a rest.

(If you are reading online, please see the end of this sermon for the answers)!

Today’s gospel is a story about fishing, but it is not about fish! It’s a story where Peter and others come to the lake wanting to catch fish, but actually, deep down, there is something else they really desire – a desire beyond their immediate desire.

I wouldn’t be a bit surprised if you might be thinking to yourself, “What in the world is Simon talking about?” That’s a good and legitimate question, but stay with me because I am asking that today we “put out into the deep water” where we can neither see nor touch the bottom, where we can’t know what might be down there or what might be coming to us from the deep. Peter and the others in our story surely had no idea what would happen when they let down their nets, and sometimes, neither do we!

On the surface it would be easy to hear today’s story as one in which Jesus fulfils the desires of Peter and the others; the desire to catch fish, the desire to be successful, the desire to make a living. But I’m not sure that that is all that is going on here. I think there is more to this than fish, success and making a living.

Here’s why I say that – what did they do with the fish, their success and the money they would have made at the market once they got back to shore? Well, we are told – they left everything and followed Jesus. They walked away. Those things were not the end of the story but the beginning of the story. Their initial desires took them to the lake, but it was a “desire beyond their immediate desire” that called them beyond the lake.

Most of us will know what that’s like because I think most of us will have experienced that too. I wonder if you have had times in your life when you said, “If only I could …” and then fill in the blank with whatever it is you thought would fulfil you; “go here, do this, get that, find the right woman or man, have a child or grandchild, get that job or promotion, buy a new house, be given a particular opportunity.” And then one day you went, you did, you got and maybe it turned out exactly like you wanted or not at all like you expected, but either way you were still left with a yearning – in time the feeling that there was something more returned and you felt a desire for something else calling you onwards.

That doesn’t mean those things we desired were bad or that we were wrong. It just means that even within those things there is a “desire beyond desire.”

Now you and I know that not every desire is fulfilled, we don’t always get what we expect and not every twist or turn in our lives leaves us feeling happy. That’s just not how life works. We’ve all experienced that side of life. We’ve seen relationships break down or we’ve experienced a sudden change in our financial security. We’ve had loved ones pass away well ‘before their time’ or we feel we’ve become lost and ignored.

We get it when Peter says, “Master, we have worked all night long but have caught nothing.” But it’s that “desire beyond desire” that keeps us going, that will not allow us to say, “This is it. It’s over. Let’s just wash the nets and go home.”

It was the “desire beyond desire” that let Peter answer Jesus, “Yet if you say so, I will let down the nets.” Jesus knew Peter had a deeper desire. Jesus did not magically fill Peter’s nets. He touched Peter’s deeper desire and if we open our hearts to him, that’s what he does for us. We all have that same deeper desire within us.

We want to connect with and be known by something beyond what we can acquire, what we can gain or accomplish for ourselves. We want meaning and fullness in our lives. We want our lives to matter and count for something. We want to feel alive. We want to be whole and complete. We want to experience and live in the good, the true and the beautiful – we want life in all its abundancy. Isn’t that how you want to live and what you want for yourself and those you love? That’s our “desire beyond desire.” And Jesus is the one calling us, guiding us and walking with us.

And what if those times and places in which we feel stuck, frustrated, empty, restless, disappointed, as if we’ve missed the boat, are the deep waters into which we are asked to let down our nets? Jesus did not let Peter and the others run away from their exhaustion, their disappointment and their empty nets. He sent them back to the deep water to let down their nets and they “were amazed at the catch of fish,” “so many fish that their nets were beginning to break”.

Are you exhausted and frustrated with your life?

Do you feel unfulfilled and restless?

Do you feel stuck and like you’ve missed the boat?

Maybe this is the moment when you are being asked to let down your nets.

Instead of washing them up and going home, open your eyes, your ears and your heart to the deep waters of life. Be attentive to what lies below the surface. Make yourself open and available to the “desire beyond desire.” It is always unfolding before us and it is never just one thing. It comes to us in a thousand different ways. It changes throughout the seasons and circumstances of our lives.

That “desire beyond desire” is why we still cast our nets even after a night of having caught nothing. It’s why we struggle to do the right thing and to live with integrity. It’s why we forgive and make amends. It’s why we speak for justice and the dignity of every human being. It’s why we open our hearts and risk loving. It’s why we get up each morning and “put out into the deep water.”

Every day something new is coming to us. And so each of us had better be ready – that’s not a threat, that’s about the promise of new life, the gift contained in our “desire beyond desire.” Don’t miss it. Stay awake and alert, in expectation and hope. Put out into deep water and let down your nets!

May God bless you and all those you hold dear in this coming week.

Amen

Fr Simon

Quiz

1. Clown Fish
2. Tuna
3. Pike
4. Skate
5. Perch